I’m not gonna lie – it’s intimidating, seeing how people around you are, in society’s eyes, “ahead of you in life”.
Today, I wanted to use this space, my own space, to pen down my feelings as I turn 28. At this age, many around me have settled down/ are starting to get married/ preparing for a baby. But what I’ve also learned along the years is that people will always be at different pace of their life, and there’s no clear “winner” or “loser”. Just because you have more money or achieve a higher social status doesn’t mean you’re better than others.
I believe success means having empathy, kindness, care and love for yourself and others (and this includes people you know & don’t know).
I don’t regret any decisions I’ve made in the past, because they shaped me into the person I am. I am proud of what I’ve achieved, and I would like to reflect and celebrate my successes today. I feel thankful for Ad everyday, for how he’s always helping me to look at the bright side of life, and teaching me how to love myself even more. And I’m so bloody grateful for a partner who sees me as his equal, treats me (and all women and different kinds of people) with respect and who believes in me wholeheartedly.
Before circuit breaker ended, we gave each other assignments. And one of it was to write down what I love about myself. And from one of my birthday messages today, Qianhui reminded me to “continue to be myself and not be afraid to share my opinions – good or bad”. I truly appreciate having friends like this, who take me at my best and worst moments.
I have low self-esteem. People often think that I’m confident, but it’s all an image that I put up. Adrian often assures me I look great, no matter how many times I tell him I’ve gained weight. And I’m truly thankful for friends like Will who often remind me that I’m overthinking, and that I’m an intelligent woman who’s great company.
I might be leading a life in isolation today, but I feel extra loved by those around me. I woke up to a bunch of messages from my favourite people – my best friends, friends from work and school, ex-colleagues and even ex-dates who wished me the best.
I feel blessed, and I’m proud of myself – for treating everyone with my utmost genuine heart, and for always trying to make a difference in their lives. Thank you for giving me the opportunity, I appreciate it really.
Most importantly, I want to give myself a shout-out – for trying my darnest best in whatever I do, for not giving up easily, for being willing to open up my heart, for being brave in making decisions that are not considered normal, and for always trying to be a better version of myself.
Happy birthday, me.